It was the last lesson about friendship.
He said he had a past experience where he lost a best friend.
When he first said that I thought he meant that his friend, like, died.
But then he added that they fought over a small matter. A stupid thing. He was shaking his head and maybe sighing.
The next thing he says gets my full attention apart from someone who kept giving me the orange flavoured sour Skittles because she hates orange flavoured stuff.
He said, "The best friend is not the perfect friend."
"If your friend fails you in some way, forgive them."
He also added, "A good friend is one that is honest."
The class is ultra noisy.
"And that takes--- and that TAKES, AND THAT TAKES..."
Everybody finally shuts up after he kinda-sorta scolds them.
"And that takes courage to tell someone he's doing something wrong. We usually want to keep our friends and don't dare to tell them."
And while I am challenged to eat two sour Skittles at once, I think about it.
That's what I had been trying to do, gathering up courage to tell her everything. And I did. But now some people aren't happy with that. She couldn't accept it and now I'm expected to apologise. Apologise for what, exactly? In what way did I wrong? By being honest?
But it's what Dear teacher says about the best friend not always being the perfect friend. I know that, but it's so difficult to even just be her friend now. Even an acquaintance.
Now that we're not talking it's easy, I guess. And it helps to know that I'm not the only one that feels this way. There are some who feel even more strongly than I do in some aspects.
But this is still unresolved and some other people want me to solve it fast.
So if I don't dare to tell the person he's doing something wrong, but I keep the "friend",
is the alternative to tell the person and then lose the "friend"?
This makes me want to confide in Dear teacher. He said something about a previous lesson where we said we could confide in him, in pets, in plants and all the other random stuff those retards think of. I don't know if I can do it though. Seeing as I don't know him very well.
I wonder if he'll think I'm a pathetic student ruining his day. But he's no Marc.
Oh wells. To quote Coldplay's The Scientist;
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard